I don’t know what Kurt Cobain intended and frankly don’t really care. I tend to be irrationally biased against someone who takes a shotgun to their head and leaves their toddler fatherless, no matter how tormented they might be. However, the line does hold some significance for me. It suggests a more pressing demand: “You say this is the most fabulous dinner party in town, so here we are now, entertain us, show us what you’ve got, what all the fuss is about, the hoopla, the bragging and hype, the reason we had to leave everything else and come here.”

All dressed up with nowhere to go.
It’s what someone post depression might ask in a nutshell. “Now that the scales have fallen from my eyes, allow me to try on those rose-colored glasses you seem to love so much.” Well there were no scales, and those rose colored glasses are just that: shades masking a grey and indifferent reality.
There is no objective world out there waiting for us to see it for what it truly is. Those of us who are happy tend to advise and caution the rest who are not, while failing to realize or maybe even choosing to ignore the fact that mere contentement does not qualify anyone to be a life coach. Nor does prior experience because it assumes that the mentor somehow managed to sidestep (or fall into but survive) the same potholes in which the pupil is now entrenched. When a philosophy is adopted wholesale, it becomes a dogma, just as when religion is embraced with total abandon, it becomes fanaticism.
Here we are now, entertain us. If life is one big dinner party, I never make my choices à la carte. The options may be less appealing and the effort more demanding, but I always go for the buffet.
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This is by far my favorite blog post from you to date. Worlds can't express how happy I am to see you write this and may I say I knew you were talented in so many ways, (architecture, photography, film) but you amaze me everyday with the way you put words together...so as I said, I have no words aside from this quote (hope you know where it is from=)
"Hemingway has his classic moment in "The Sun Also Rises" when someone asks Mike Campbell how he went bankrupt. All he can say is, "Gradually, then suddenly." That's how depression hits. You wake up one morning, afraid that you're gonna live."
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The Black Swan, which I haven't started reading yet. :) Love you. x
Wrong. Prozac Nation. I am assuming you haven't ever got around to read it after my endless amount of nagging, so watch the movie instead one night, I would love to hear your review on this. HABIBI
OK which should I read first?
"but I always go for the buffet."
Interesting...
Care to elaborate?
Meedz, you can't imagine the smile i had on my face while reading this post.
My battery needs 4min before it dies. But I just read this... And just couldn't not to comment on it.
Some order a la carte, other pick the buffet, and few order the Plat du Jour.
Would love to elaborate more tomorrow.
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Read Black Swan first, and Prozac Nation another time, it is a little depressing, but a great read. (or watch movie, I really enjoyed it too, but no justice to book). I am LOVING Black Swan and I really think it is a good read for you now as it will help in the way you think about the big picture and being as far away from normalcy as possible concerning ideas for empire=) Plus so many things he writes remind me of you! Loving you from Romania!
Can't wait. Damn you Turkish Airlines!
Loving you (all of us!!) from Beirut!
What ever you go for, the buffet or a la carte, i just hope that you will make use of your talents,and they are numerous, and then iam sure that you will gain a lot except extra weight :)xx
Hahaha! Thanks for the encouragement. x